Bethany Jones

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The world gives me comfort but it's not the same as when I'm on the bottom and you call my name. How you love me


I am so lucky

This semester has been one of the best and the worst. School is absolutely awful this semester, I'm doing so bad, all my classes are so hard. School is not my priority. Relationships are my priority, friends, hanging out, being involved. Why does school have to be so important? I have over extended myself this year and I feel like no matter what I do, I'm letting at least one commitment down.

Now I'm off to take a test that I have barely studied for because I was busy at my almost 3 hour long heart group last night

http://www.telegraph.co.uk/news/newstopics/howaboutthat/4927224/Pink-dolphin-appears-in-US-lake.html




this is so awesome

I love Phil Wickham. Why can't we just get married already. I wish I had a pretty singing voice, all of my friends are musical and then there's me...haha

I am ready for SUMMER, I cannot wait, this spring semester is gonna be rocky

I haven't had a face painting in so long

I want to see MuteMath in concert. PLEASE TOUR!!!


I set up an itunes account last night...it is proving to be very dangerous on my bank account...crap.

by the way: I am falling in love with Alicia Bock Photography

Lack of sleeeeeeeeep= story of my life

My school work is not going very well this semester...My stats and spanish classes are so hard, I feel like I still haven't "gotten back in gear" for the semester. All I want to do is just build relationships and help out. I suppose that will be even better accomplished if I pay attn in school and actually get my psych degree.

So its been over a week since Sage last contacted me. I hope this means that he has accepted my decision and is taking the proper measures to move on and get over it. I guess we'll find out.

I CANNOT WAIT TO MOVE INTO AN APARTMENT. I move into Bobcat Village the week of my birthday, I actually probably will be moving in stuff and unpacking ON my birthday. Its also all the same week we get done with school and the week that people graduate. That will be a busy week! I am looking so forward to it and all that this summer entails. I am going to be a master chef....on the george foreman haha.

I have so much joy these days. Like, yeah, I still have struggles but it doesn't bring me down because I have the peace of God which transcends all understanding and I know that I don't need to worry about everything because He is sovereign and will comfort me through the bad and dance with me through the good!

One of my friends just ordered a Nikon D90 and I'm so jealous. I don't know much about photography but I have ALWAYS wanted to have a nice camera so I could learn. ONE day I will be able to buy myself a nice camera and pick up on that hobby! ONE DAY!


Love, Peace & Chicken Grease :)

Things you have done during your lifetime:
( ) Gone on a blind date
(x) Skipped school
( ) Watched someone die
( ) Been to Canada
(x) Been to Mexico
(x) Been to Florida
() Been to Hawaii
(x) Been on a plane
( ) Been on a helicopter
(x) Been lost - but not for long
( ) Gone to Washington, DC
(x) Swam in the ocean
(x) Cried yourself to sleep -
(x) Played cops and robbers
( ) Recently colored with crayons
(x) Sang Karaoke
(x) Paid for a meal with coins only
( ) Been to the top of the St. Louis Arch
(x) Done something you told yourself you wouldn't.
(x) Made prank phone calls
( ) Been down Bourbon Street in New Orleans
(x) Laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose & elsewhere
(x) Caught a snowflake on your tongue
(x) Danced in the rain
(x) Written a letter to Santa Claus
( ) Been kissed under the mistletoe
(x) Watched the sunrise with someone
(x) Blown bubbles
(x) Gone ice-skating
(x) Gone to the movies
( ) Been deep sea fishing
( ) Driven across the United States
( ) Been in a hot air balloon
( ) Been sky diving
( ) Gone snowmobiling
( ) Lived in more than one country
(x) Lay down outside at night and admired the stars while listening to the crickets
(x) Seen a falling star and made a wish
( ) Enjoyed the beauty of Old Faithful Geyser
( ) Seen the Statue of Liberty
( ) Gone to the top of Seattle Space Needle
( ) Been on a cruise
(x) Traveled by train
( ) Traveled by motorcycle
(x) Been horseback riding
( ) Ridden on a San Francisco CABLE CAR
( ) Been to Disneyland
(x) Been to Disney World
(x) Truly believe in the power of prayer
( ) Been in a rain forest
( ) Seen whales in the ocean
( ) Been to Niagara Falls
( ) Ridden on an elephant
(x) Swam with dolphins
( ) Been to the Olympics
( ) Walked on the Great Wall of China
( ) Saw and heard a glacier calf
( ) Been spinnaker flying
(x) Been water-skiing
(x) Been snow-skiing
( ) Been to Westminster Abbey
( ) Been to the Louvre
( ) Swam in the Mediterranean
(x) Been to a Major League Baseball game
( ) Been to a National Football League game


Wow, I still have alot out there I want to accomplish!!!

So, my life is crazy. Monday-Sunday last week Sage contacted me nonstop everyday. He also chose to go to my friends Shelby, Levi, Brooke, and my mom. AWESOME. I ignored his attempts all week b/c I thought that would be best and he would get the point and give up....could I have been any more wrong? I think not. Finally it all blew up Sunday. He called me twice and sent me 2 emails to which I did not acknowledge. Then I get a phone call from his sister begging me to call him b/c she is worried about him and I am the only one who can console him. That he is freaking out and she thinks we need to talk (she thinks we are getting back together--we are not). I told her I would think about it but that I really didn't want to. One second after I get off the phone with her, Brooke calls (she is dating Sage's roommate) and says that she is really worried about Sage and could I please call him. So I get off the phone with her and decided to just call him and try to end it once and for all, get it through his head that I have moved on and its over.

We were on the phone for about 30 minutes and I have never heard someone that hysterical. It was scary and I didn't know what to do so I just tried to talk calmly the whole time but he didn't want to hear anything I had to say. He doesn't think it's over. Eventually he just got mad b/c I wasn't giving in to his demands so he said Bye. The next day he emailed my mom talking about how he was going to miss our family dearly and he was so sorry blah blah blah. I thought maybe he got the point during this past week but then last night he filled out that 25 questions thing on facebook and it was ALL about me... then he called Shelby and made her talk to him for an hour, then he emailed my mom and asked her to forward a message to me. He is just not stopping and it is really getting out of hand but I feel like there is nothing I can do! I have tried to spare his feelings but I feel like it's going to have to take me being a little mean or something...I don't want to be though...

Here is an email I typed out but haven't decided if I'm sending it or not:

"YOU NEED TO LEAVE ME AND EVERYONE CLOSE TO ME ALONE. I'm sick of trying to spare your feelings. It really is over and you need to start being a man about it. You are probably one of the best liers I have ever met in my life. "Nothing ever happened with Lee" Oh wait, let me look at a billion pictures on facebook of the two of you holding hands and crap. I have moved way past you, and you need to realize that and accept it before I have to get a freaking restraining order or something. You are turning into a psycho and nothing you can do will ever bring back what we had. REALIZE IT. You are only further ruining any chance of us ever having a friendship even years from now. You scare me. If you ever try to contact my mom or Shelby again...just know that it will not be good. Accept it so you can move on with your life, take time to heal, don't try to quick fix it like you did with Lee the first time. Although I'm sure her striking beauty makes it tempting. I hope you take this to heart and don't ever try to contact me or my family and friends again."

I was pretty mad when I typed it... I just feel like I don't want to talk to him, I don't know if I should get my Dad to talk to him, or try to talk to his family or what, but this can't keep up, it's reaching a really unhealthy point....Help

I feel like during this past week and a half that I have been back in San Marcos, everyday has been the BEST day possible. I am so so so extremely happy. The only minor set back during this time was that I found out Sage had been cheating on me while we were dating...But the thing is, it didn't hurt me or tear me up because I am not in love with him anymore. Like, it sucks but it doesn't matter anymore. Anyways, I am just so excited for every single day to start and every conversation I have!

So I leave for San Marcos in the morning. I CANNOT WAIT to get back, I just feel like stale or something when I'm back at home and around Houston. This break actually wasn't that bad though, like I thought I would be miserable but suprisingly it flew by and my parents and I didn't fight not once!

I am so excited for this coming year, I just feel like this is going to be an amazing year. So much has changed in my life, like hardly anything is the same! I just know that I will experience so much this semester and this summer and I am just going to liiiiive. All the pain and troubles this past semester are going to make this year just that much better in comparison. I have been burned, badly, but I have learned that I can survive and that God will see me through and use my pain to build me into something even greater! I just want to help as many people as I can this year, that is my new years resolution I guess, I just want to really make a difference and build relationships and just be there. I want to start making conscious efforts to help homeless people in the Austin area, I feel like that is something I am called to do, who knows how I can accomplish that being a blonde 19 year old naive girl wanting to help crazy old men...But I'm sure it will be revealed to me :)

I feel so light, finally the weight is being lifted, while I am not completely healed, far from it in fact, I am on my way and there is no rush because it is shaping me everyday.

On a lighter note, I want to go hiking alot more this semester! It is something I always wanted to do when Sage and I were dating but he never wanted to so I would just sit around with him, doing nothing. I am going to do the things I want to do and get as many experiences in as I can! I will be more spontaneous, more care free, more THERE. My mind will be in the moment.

I am so excited for this year, THE YEAR OF CHANGE!!!!!!!!!!

So when I logged into my photobucket account I found all these old pictures of back in high school when we were crazy! These pictures are from the weekend my parents went out of town and I threw a party at our house. hahah they are pretty rough

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these pictures are the definition of Hot Mess

haha sick

Here are the new dishes and other stuff for my apartment!


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and this is the painting that I did

http://i144.photobucket.com/albums/r193/bbbjones/stuff/008.jpg


the direct link only gives you a link to click on...

So I have a confession to make:

I bought the new Pink cd and I LOVE it. Absolutely LOVE IT.

Also, I got a ton of art supplies for Christmas and I have been getting alot more into painting and drawing again. If I knew how to post a picture on here I would post one of a painting I finished the other night! I had this dream about one of my friend's getting a tattoo that said Peace In Revelation, so I painted it. I like it, I'm hoping I can decorate my walls with some of my painting, I bought canvases. I am planning so far in advance for moving into this apartment in May. I have already bought so much decorating and cooking stuff, I cannot wait!

Relationship news:

Things are going very well. Sage and I have been broken up for 2 months. The first month was no doubt about it, the hardest month of my entire life. I am so glad it is over and God has answered my prayers, I feel blessed with so much clarity and strength. Sadly, Sage isn't quite as far along...he is still at the exact same place as when we broke up...at least that's the drift I have caught. We really don't talk much anymore, I told him the communication ball was in his court. I have been hearing from him about once a week, just a "hey", nothing else. I worry about him, but oh well.
There is kind of a new guy. Not really, but just a developing friendship that has potential to be more. This guy definitely has a lot of the qualities I have realized that I need. We'll see where that goes once I get back after the break.

Upside of breakup #1: Lost 5 lbs already

I find myself thinking of the most random information that he just has to know, and so i begin to text, and then i realize i am just making up reasons to have communication.

i dont know what to tell everyone when they ask because i dont even know what to tell myself.

Space? Fights? Summer? who knows what the reason is

when its a mutual decision its not supposed to hurt as much...right? wrong.

So much for a happy birthday......Sage drove over sometime during the night and left my presents on the door step the morning of my birthday. He said he wanted me to have them but he thought it would be too hard for us to get together to do it.

He still texts me in the mornings, and gets sad if i just say one thing then ok bye, i have officially put my wall up. This couldnt have come at a worse time.

Goals for this semester:

-Become closer with God
-Make Sage and I's relationship work
-3.0 or higher GPA
-Get back to that size I used to wear that one time
-Become more involved with Crosstalk

SO, last night i found out I was a mistake! An Accident! My parents didnt mean to have me

Love does not consist in gazing at eachother, but in looking outward together in the same direction.